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All you want to do is Use me to get your way Taking advantage of me Is your favorite game You say that I'm changing So I'll become your slave A slave to your emotions Until your dying day Wishing that I'd cave in And let you take control You let your anger build up Until your mind is full And then you cannot stand me You wish that I'd obey Instead of calling all your bluffs And standing in your way Now you must play the cards That you have been handed Maybe next time you will think Before taking me for granted

It seems that all that I ever do Is sit here and silently scream at you Inside of my head, inside of my mind I am powerless to find A reason to think that you are great Why I should love you to this date? When all you do is make me feel Like I have no reason to appeal To anything or anyone And why should I, since I'm so "dumb"? Yes, slow and dumb and oh so weak Please pick on me 'cause I'm such a freak Staring at you, I silently scream Sometimes you hear me, or so it seems And you at least attempt to be nice But it lasts only once, or maybe twice And then you're back to telling me how I was smarter THEN than I am NOW And abu

Diligently playing other's emotions Rivers quickly turned into oceans Attention recived at post haste Much of it purely just a waste All the yelling and the crying Quickly makes me feel like dying Under the stress I cater to you Even desperate to get others to Ending up only feeding your need Never seeing your selfishness recede

Awaken wildly one night from my dreams Feeling as though nothing is as it seems A terrible sight filled my innocent eyes My ears were filled by moans and cries They walked in a row right past my bed Millions of figures with hoods over their heads Their arms, they were chained together at the wrists Their hands were made into tight angry fists In unison they marched past my bed, through the wall Footsteps of them still echoing straight down the hall I watched them in awe, wondering from where they came Noticing just how they all looked the same My eyes filled with tears and I closed them up tight Hid under my covers and cried for

Late at night when I finally sleep Closing my eyes, I gently fall Into the deep realms of my mind Where I can hear no one's call So beautiful is this place Much more different than the norm Laying on the grass and watching the clouds I slowly see my thoughts take form Pleasant dreams begin to take place Where everything's fine, and nothing's a mess So thankful am I for this break From life's constant daily stress In fact, so lovely is my sleep That when I awake I feel saddened Until it is time for bed once more And I enter my dream world again

Dark, vain eyes fixate upon me As I sit inside my cage Inescapable, door locked tight Suffocated by the never ending gaze Light turns to darkness, the shadows die Leaving nothing but emptiness there Blank reminders of memories past Locked forever in despair Apparitions of what used to be Dancing forever inside my head Until realization flows through me And I notice that I am dead

The sun shows itself Peering over the water Rays of pink and gold The glistening drops of dew Still fresh on the grass The shades of the sky Like God's own canvas of light Cause shimmering waves And the technicolor clouds To act as a frame The birds fly freely Singing the song of the morn Like background music Morning air brushes past me Starting a new day